Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Frustration

Few things in life are more frustrating than writer’s block. A really bad case of writer’s block can result in one becoming completely incapable of verbal expression of any form. Consider, for example, the hypothetical situation of a blogger whose last post was published on 31st December 2005. That makes it six months and 19 days. Close to 5000 hours of sheer mind-numbing aggravation at the fact that the mind is brimming with thoughts, emotions, ideas, anecdotes but the brain is simply incapable of organizing them into any sort of coherent text. 5000 hours of melancholy, of depression, of disappointment, of self-doubt. A sinking feeling that one is simply not living up to expectations, even though one would love to (“Hey, awesome blog! Why no post for ages?” “Looking forward to your next post!” “Knock knock. When are you going to start writing again?” “Please don’t stop blogging!”) In this purely hypothetical scenario, the blogger (if he still qualifies to be called one) finds himself stuck in a downward spiral of communicative frustration and self-directed rage. Every failed attempt to write (11 posts – all begun, none completed - each more bitter and contrived than the last) further compounds the desperation, a sinking feeling that what was once one’s art, one’s talent, one’s passion, one’s window to the world is no more the force it once was. The flow, once effortless, has all but ceased. The energy is ebbing, the flair is missing. The ability is wilting, it’s waning, it’s dying. And, in what can only be a karmic ironic twist, the only topic he is finally able to bring himself to scrape together a passage about is the damned Writer’s Block.

7 comments:

meera said...

well..thats a start..and dont berate youself for something that most of us go through..its been eons since i've put up a post..one i'm happy with..everything's in your head..its putting it down right thats so hard!!!!!!!

AC said...

Thanks a lot, Meera :) It really means a lot to know people are still reading my blog!

I'm hoping to slowly get back into the groove over the next couple of months... let's see how things go...

bhargs said...

hey AC, this is ur junior.. i thought this blog wud hav been non-existent by now! jst happened to click on the url and am mighty surprised.. good luck to ur renovation plans n looking fwd to a great writing ! :)

The Drunken Monk said...

Cool post and after a long,long time.....

praveens said...

Good work dude...Though long time .best of luck for your renovations plans..we never get frustrated and offlated for eons even though we were reading your previous post(s)....

AC said...

Wow... thanks, guys... here's hoping I can make things click once again!

shiv said...

hey, well written... actually the fact that u wrote ur thots itself is a big win!

my last blog is abt a yr ago!
and i've been tryin to reenter all along! amidst plans of creating a new website too...
so much for ambitions!
:-)
happens... blame it on tamas!